Thursday, January 14, 2010

We Interrupt This Month of Service To Bring You....

Dude. I'm not doing so great right now. I didn't perform any acts of service yesterday, except for diaper changing and other family related stuff, so no acts that counted anyway. My husband and I had a talk last night that left me feeling pretty low and I was unable to sleep it off. I woke up this morning with a lot of negative thoughts about myself and have spent the last few hours wondering how I could gracefully bow out of this public goal that I have made. I even considered just deleting all of the posts and pretending like it never happened. But, being the smarty pants that I am, I made this goal publicly to prevent myself from weaseling out of it.

I was still pondering how to get out of it when I checked my email just a few minutes ago. Thank you, Nikki, for your comment on yesterday's post. It helped me to see that serving is easy. It doesn't have to be big. You may have just saved this project for me.

I made the rule that I have to serve at least one person besides myself, but I think that I'm going to bend that rule a little bit today.

My act of service today will be to pull myself out of this funk so that I can continue with my plans. I'm going to pray, read my scriptures, call a friend to chat, play with my boys and get rid of all of the negative self talk that's going on right now.

Before I sign off, can I give you a piece of advice? Don't set goals in public unless you have a safety net of good friends to buoy you up. Thanks for all of the good wishes.


Andrea said...

I saw you post a few days ago and it really got me thinking. At first I thought it really would be easy to do a simple service a day, but I have found that to be a lot harder than I imagined. I agree with today's post keep it simple, it doesn't have to be big. Keep your eyes and heart open and the opportunities should present themselves. I'm glad that you put your goal out there because it has encouraged me to get out there and be more mindful of other people.

Nikki said...

I was actually considering doing this goal too. Perhaps I'll do it in February with just 28 days. ;)

But it is a goal after all. If you end up serving for five days out of the month- that are acts of service outside of your normal everyday routine- that's FIVE days you've blessed someone else. I think goals are meant to be big. Let it encourage you for future goals.

But on the flipside- you TOTALLY sound like me. The whole deleting it and stuff. haha Sounds like something I would say to Danny. Life can be quite overwhelming.

Count today as the day you did service for me by posting this and inspiring me to serve more.